I really can't stand the way things are going.  Things were finally getting peaceful with my daughter's mom.  We were swapping the baby on a weekly basis so we could share equal time with her until the divorce was finalized.  Then all of a sudden, she tells me that she's keeping her down there and that she will never bring her back to stay with me again.  Supposedly, her lawyer told her so.  I seriously doubt that.

So here I am, doing what I can to move my life forward.  I have no romantic feelings for my soon-to-be-ex-wife left.  Starting school again Monday for the first time since I met her.  Working and doing well at a new job.  But the one who means the most to me, my little angel, is out of reach.  I know God allows all things to happen for the good of His people, so I know that somehow, something good will come out of this crap.  I also know that one day she will have to answer for what she's done, doing, and will do.  Though she most likely won't suffer any consequences for poor choices during this life, she will later.

I just hope that I continue to live a righteous life, because I have enough to answer for already when my day of judgment comes.

So yeah, my wife was served her divorce papers and all of a sudden was willing to cooperate and let me see my daughter.  I had her from last Saturday til today and had a total blast, as did she.  Well, when I brought her back to her mother today, something happened that I totally did not expect.  I can't stand even speaking to my whore of a wife, but she was looking VERY good.  Wearing a low-cut top and tight jeans, I had a very hard to resist urge to rip her clothes off and go back to old times.  That really confuses me.  I can't stand talking to her.  Everything about her pisses me off.  But when I see her, I want to become an animal.  And even before the separation, we hadn't had sex for months - and before then, it was a few months.  It was never my choice to stop being intimate - I just respected her wishes.

Combine that with having two coworkers at my first day on the job hit on me very blatantly and being over 1000 miles from the girl I want to be with and you have a lot of frustration.  Any tips from anybody on what the heck to do here other than hope I'll be able to turn off my drive until I remarry?